Several folks have been saying things to me like “Aren’t you excited about your new job and lab? Because you seem so… calm.” Okay, so maybe I’m not running around all frantic-like, feeling like I want to cry at the drop of a hat, experiencing heart palpitations, and constantly wondering when my head is actually going to spin off. (That was two months ago, thankyouverymuch.) But I’m still feeling pretty stressed. And that stress is starting to wear on my body – specifically my face. I’ve been breaking out like a little teenage girl praying for a prom date these past few weeks. Add on some extra poundage from weaning, holiday baking, and lack of exercise due to repeated illnesses, and I feel completely ugh.
Maybe I shouldn’t be so worried about the physical manifestations of my stress, but I am. I spent extra time this morning covering my blemishes with makeup, as well as a little more time on my hair and wardrobe to distract from my snug waistbands. Not that I think worrying about what makes me feel attractive is necessarily a bad thing, especially when the feeling of *ugh* is partly due to not being at the peak of my own health. But I can’t help thinking that the time spent trying to cover up my flaws is a little, I don’t know, wrong. As I get closer to starting my new grown-up job, I’m feeling a bit insecure, and the flaws on the surface are mirrored by butterflies in my stomach and anxiety in my head. Who knows – maybe some extra work on the exterior will quell my underlying angst.
I’m probably seriously over-thinking all of this. What I need is a serious day at the spa. Alas, I don’t have time for that right now. But I am getting a haircut at my favorite salon in a couple of weeks, and I just made an appointment for a brow wax and pedi. So what if my toes are buried in wool stockings and Birkenstocks – it makes me feel pretty, and it relaxes me. This is just one area in which I will always be a bit of a girly-girl.
How do you all unwind when stress takes over your mental and physical well- being?